Ma prerogative

7th monthsary

2009-08-10T03:53:00.000-07:00

Happy 7th monthsary!!! wuhoo...

We made it through ups and downs for seven months.

i luv him i luv him i luv him i luv him

we almost cancelled our plan out for fireworks( paham2 je lah eh, susah kuar umah.. hehe)

my sister suddenly asked me out to jurong point and told me to ask hubby to tagged along..

as usual he's a little late while me and sister walked around wait for him(for lunch).

when we reached NTUC fairprice, i ask my sister whether we can have lunch at her place. we do the cooking while he do the baby sitting.. heheh(naj like to see him wif kids)

when we were at sister's place, me and my sister do the cooking while hubby feed Raul.

seeing him doing that, i can't stop smiling..

Cooking is tiring..( ayam masak cili padi & stir fried vege)

first time cook doesnt fufill my man's stomach.. sorry..

then we off to cityhall..

we exchanged gift in the train.. hehe(my gift hasn't really completed but i showed to him.. )

(he got me this! tanx baby)

waiting for syafiq mcm tggu buah jatoh!! ahhahah

jumpe the rest of the buddies at padang(somewhere around there)

then there's fireworks!! best giler.. (tk pernah tgk live)

the BEST part is, its our 7th month celebration..

it was so crowded.. people actually cheer when the barrier was removed(huh, nuts!)

then go newton for dinner/supper... kesian ayg, if only i can buy him more food..

I missed last bus .. it was my first time going home dat late.. took a cab.. hubby thought dat im still sad and angry... but actually i looked at the cab meter increased every cents.. hoping that the fare only cost less than 20 bucks(for hubby to go home with the remaining money)

He sent me to the doorstep..but end up chatting at that spot(mcm kat kampong, dream come true).. Like totally normal and nice, i like it.. he went home after that..

that's all..

we are different.. :(

new new

2009-06-19T09:07:00.000-07:00

huh... Fyp feverr..

very lazy to update blog..
baby boi got angry... 4th month and 5th month not updated..
will update soon after fyp report G301 is done...
with lots of luv...
Naj

have you ever do something that you think is right for you and others.. but a little afraid to face the consequences?
- from a person who thinks about herself for the first time(trying to stop blaming ownself)

3rd monthsary

2009-04-08T08:11:00.000-07:00

Past few weeks had been exhausting..
stress, sadness, tired.. all in one..
what happen??
let it be only me and him knows..

Alot of things change..
hah.. sometimes, i don even know who i am..

But now.. im ok!! trying to think positive...
thanks to hubby, im smiling all de way..
Half an hour to go toooo...::

Happy 3rd monthsary HUbby.. 090409

im sooo sori that i make u sad and angry in any way..
im sori that i was not there to support u during ur comp day due to
things that i can't avoid last minute..
Im sori that im not ur best girlfren..

I love u hubby.. i wont leave u..
You are there for me whenever i need u..
remember this... ill be supporting u for anything even when im not right beside you..
ill try to change for u.. can u do that for me too??

" Setiap org punya impian, impian itu yang bisa meneruskan kehidupan..."

bf to me

2009-02-24T07:46:00.000-08:00

I admit it.. Bf got me alot of stuffs.. Just last valentines' day, he got me a new necklace, a pair of jeans(that i had always wanted) and a box of chocolate(i wonder why all the gifts comes with chocolate)..

I myself, not a single thing I can give him.. sob sob.. no money no talk.. i can only cook for him(hope u like it..)

I almost lost a ring.. Luckily he's kind enough to search for it for me.. hehe..

Now, i just feel tired..

>> Morning cook lunch for bf and me, afternoon met bf.. then go library(do some fyp research, didnt manage to find wat I want.. then of to Bugis junction(just walk around), night ade ngaji.. then served some food to asatizah and sister(stupid new maid got attitude problem.. she just left the kitchen without helping and off to bed).. then I washed the dishes and clean the kitchen.. clear the dining table.. then went to my room.,,

haizz... wat a day...

Im thinking wat to feed myself for tomorow.. just cereal?? maybe.. but how about bf?

haiz cik sul dah tkde... susah benar.. now bf and me juz have to save alot.. no more spending(naj, dont even think to ask for anything..hehehe..) today.. we have achieved something.. amount spend: $0.00.. yeay!! Ya Tuhan, bukalah pintu rezeki untuk kami.. im helping him to find part time job, any vacancies anyone? inform me aite...

ok ok, waiting for bf finishes his prayer...

waiting for his call..

CEPATlah sikit Bang oiii!!

till then,

Chao!

sorry to bf

2009-02-11T07:55:00.000-08:00

haiya... geram betul ngan batok ni..

btw.. nasib baek By check the training timetable..

Fuhh... kalo tak.. missed agaknye...

i forced myself to come...

Naj boleh nye... segalanya untuk Endang.. jiwe beb

tapi dorg mesti get irritated by me...

ter batok sane.. terbatok sini... sori uh gang.. can't control.. too painful

then the best part is.... MAKAN... bf masak nasi lemak.. baek kape... tak sia2.. (By... sok mee goreng eh... syg u..heh)

then balek... ade situasi yg tak menyenangkn pt umah.. nasib baek tak ade kene mengene ngan ku..

My background...

i grew up in a family that doesnt care much about someone's feelings..

in a family that don't even look at small stuff.. the word "thank you".. i can barely hear it..

everything is secret... if someone is not happy... there will be silence or scolding..

and so i learnt that whenever i'm sad, angry, etc., i have to keep it to myself...

only hear the good stuff..

suddenly this person came to my life... who wants every details.. minor things is a big deal to him..

It maybe easy for others but not for me.. he wants me to appreciate what he's done to me..On the other side i worried about bigger stuff.. I too care about us... what if we are forced not to see each other again?I don't want him to get involved in my problems.. everything shall be my fault not his..

But its ok then.. i shall keep quiet.. avoid talking nonsense.. control my temper.. cuz i unable to console someone.. not good at it.. Happy me... promised..

By.. sorry...

still sick

2009-02-10T09:38:00.000-08:00

still sick... urghhh... bingit nye...

now bf gets the virus... sorry By...

hmm.. naj batok2 tk leh tdo ...

ask him to msn me ... no respond..

i think he's asleep.. naj soo bored.. can't call anyone(malas nk dok pt living rm akai tepon umah)

2morow, bf told me to stay at home.. haiya... -> promised him oready..

hmm... ape tadi aku buat eh....

tengahari lunch wif bf..

pastu... gi FYP meeting..

pastu .. lepak pat skola tgk movie... (this time not from utube ye atie!)

pastu... bf anta balek..then he off to training

naj ade ngaji pat umah

then watch tv..

eat dinner plus eat medicine..

then on the phone with bf less then 10min..

send the attendance list to fir..

then update this blog..

n still waiting for bf to msn..(bodoh sey naj, die kn dah tdo)

wuhoo... byk jugk bende yg aku buat nari..

kk, atie dah kasi online cerpen untuk aku bace...

chao!!

ily... N to K

sick awful day

2009-02-09T07:03:00.000-08:00

Naj VERY2 sick..

flu, fever, cough, cold, headache... argghh all in one..

can't sing.. voice like a man.. (haiya)

Today is our first month.. naj don't care.. want boify jugak..

haha... go out wif bf wif the coughing, the sneezing, etc.

things don't turn out like what bf planned...

Aww... sooooo sorry... naj have to go home early...

Bf very sad... Naj want him happy how??

next celebration will be on me... naj keep herself healthy..

At home... arggh!! fyp STUff... so stress... so tired... so SICK!!!

naj have to start.. tomorow date due for the work..

oh God.. please help me...

Naj CAN'T concentrate = blog update..

I need more drugs plz...

father and daughter still not talking to each other= naj sad=naj helpless

On the other side... Naj happy, feel a bit better.. cuz mit bf!

For u By!

.. all i want is for u to trust me..

johor wif bf

2009-02-06T05:39:00.000-08:00

4th February 2009...(Wed)

Early in the morning... doesnt start well..

Kene marah ngan my dad... (adelah sebab2 tertentu)

Bf tertunggu kat bawah blok... satu jam lagi.. haiya.. confirm bingit..

Meet him then we're off to JOHORE... just the two of us!! first time sey tak ngan parents..

but at first... takot2 jugk.. but then ok lah .. bf always beside me..

Best.. haha.. even though we spent our time ONLy at one shopping centre(maklumlah.. tak tau jalan), we had lots of fun.. yeah! at last bf kasi shopping.. tapi mesti budget2 siket uh(we know our limit).. but not on FOOD! makan best2..

After wayang... receive msg from sis... " tell Horlick to make a date with me and abg fizan."

hey... horlick tu air!! waduh...

ALAMAK.. aku yang suspend... hope everything goes well.. are u ready to meet them by?

(our food!! eat at Kenny Rogers... first time!)

(I pakai slack giler... hheh.. precaution.. pat malaysia katekn)

(Bf took pic of movie ticket and receipt for the lunch.. UNderworld 3 best..u guys should watch..

i don't even know that underworld 2 exist... hah)

(we bought couple tshirt... so cute... attract our eyes... then buy... murah jugak...)

(lastly, wanna finish up malaysian currency.. bought ring... haha...)

It doent go well back in Singapore... haiya... but atleast i was having fun at first,..

I luv my BF...he's my everything... (my financial planner, my friend, my bf, etc) hehe...

dah atie.. skali tiga entry ku bagi...

hahah chao!

CFD and RETREAT

2009-02-06T05:10:00.000-08:00

hah,... 31 January 2009..

culturePhamily day...

hah... things ok lah..

fun...

picture for this.. hmm... tak de uh... mintak org laen ye..

then... Retreat.. Gala night..

Malam seniman seniwati...

hah.. naj lupe lirik.. waduh... malu sey..

sori ye sume... laen kali naj hafal lirik..

but so far... ok..

( sori lah.. naj tk dress betol2.. Bf dress up baek uh..)

( seniwati Saloma dan Seniwati Nona Asia.. :))

(alamak... seniman ngan seniwati ke ni... Aiya cik Siti..)

(our table... hmm mcm2... Bf menang award mcm paham!! tak baek sey korg.. hheheh)

( seniwati saloma ngan Sam Dol.. heheh)

enjoy jugak ku... haiya.. kalo lah dpt tgk concert awie kan best....

hehe..

batam trip

2009-02-06T03:35:00.000-08:00

Yelah .. yelah atiee.... aku update ni.... whaha.

kk.. first, ill start with holiday at Batam...( cHinese New Year)

Its not really holiday.... but its like a service learning with family...
Almost 80 orphanage children attend this event that was organized by my parents.. held at mmy aunt's place..

(wahh... bykkan... siap ngan pepsi skali..)

(KFC dorang ade nasi... 100 set of KCF meal gone!! saye tk dapat.. sob sob.. ini sume adek sdare nye pasal!)

(he's now 13..)

tengok muke dorg.. macm nk berginang air mata...

haizz...

other pics --> my multiply..

hitch

2009-01-11T07:52:00.000-08:00

9 JANUARY 2008[09/01/09]

THURSDAY.....8/1
As usually i got training.. but he's not there...
after trainng, he can't fetch me home, received a msg saying that his grandpa in hosp..

Atie & adi was to send me home..
Atie got her 4 surprised that day...

heheh... while walking toward woodland... she said she want my notebk... i thot of nothing... she unzip my bag.. i thot she was searching 4 something..

at home, as usual, after taking a shower, have to do my Rj... He called... forcing me to call him back once i finished my rj.. i really got no intention to call him cuz im so sleep and tired...

just as i done my rj... he called my house phone again.. ouh my gosh, he really make me pissed off.. im half dead...

12am~ 9/1
" u remember u said u like surprises?"

urgh... y he asked this stupid qn... i was so sleepy and my mood was down..

"open ur front door.."

and...i got presents......

[tigger & rocher..luv them]

I tot he 's outside... i look out, no sign of him... that's it... he's playing hide-n-seek and not let me sleep!!
i picked the phone..." tanx for the gift...yeay, i got tigger.. [can i go back to sleep now]where are u!!"
"haha, where i am?? look out from ur living room window"

ouh ma god!!! ""I HEART U NAJ""- using candles

WAT THE HELL IS HE DOING...

picked up the phone again... its so sweet ... nvr i encounter this b4...

" so beatiful.... so huge... heh.. tanx alot.. but plz... dont put my name... scared that my parents gonna see that.."
and i tot that was it.. really want to sleep!! then he said
" look out from ur room's window now...."
the most shocking thing ive ever seen...

on a road carpark..

5 by 3 mahjong paper....

" im gonna wack u !"
"is that a yes or no answer?"
how can i say no!.... hheheh
and then... at last i can sleep!!
hehehh...
its like a surreal...
when i prepare my bag for sch... i saw this... stuff that atie and her bf put inside my bag...

tanx hunny for everything.. really love it...

hope now u be less jealous... and more of trust...

sorry.. i dont like to be force of certain things..

& u noe that... i like to be free sometimes...

i hope u understand that.... i can never fufill of wat u want from me...

but i can always try to follow wat u say...

btw, i hav given u freedom.. trusted u for long time...dont destroy that trust

the decision ive make that i dont want to regret

Tanx to couple A- (atie & adi) hheh...

[09/01/09]--> never forget this date!
chao!

days of ma life

2009-01-11T07:27:00.000-08:00

short period= lots of things happening

1st - i got a bear .,... few weeks ago...

It a SHARE BEAR... from CareBear{see!! i remember ok!}

Aww... isnt that cute??? hehhe

2nd-

My aunt just passed away...

leaving her 4 kids and beloved husband.... just last week...

while u guy awaits for new year... she was struggling to go....

Rest In Peace....

3rd- cuzzies out.... accompany her to buy sch shoes... heheh...

Really enjoy moments with them... tho it was very tiring...

4th- Raul's back!!

enjoy feeding him, carry him and put him to sleep...

He's so special... miss him lots....

~to be continued~

New look

2008-12-22T23:48:00.000-08:00

It's been a log time since i update this blog...

Then i decided to make a new look

Update from November to December

Flame AWArd, MCG outing to Sentosa, BREEKS!

cruise terus bersAMA ria!!

wuhoo..

Super star cruise virgo!!! best kape.

food was delicious... ive been eating non stop!(tetap badan maintain)

chance to meet with artists which i dont know who

meet my favourite DJs

Celebration of 18th years of RIA 89.7FM

Atie's BIRTHdae!

Next time i will pour choc on u k atie... heheh

Baby Raul in da House!!! wuhhoo...

He's the Hungry Baby..

miss him lots..

School Holiday... watch disney on YouTube..

hahax... He's gonna be really mad at me... oops..

Soorry Darlz..

finally over

2008-11-19T06:40:00.000-08:00

Film Festival and mCG reflection is finally over...
whahah.... but actually kinda miss the fun...
one big family work together...hehhe...

MeRAh!(tanx uh mak esah... camera baek nye)

the next day... my Birtday!!!

ouh my god! im 19oready... mak oi... next year da 20... tue nye... heheh

jemput sume org cume segelintir je yg dtg... sob sob.. tanx to ifa,bas, madi for cuming the first..

no forgetting atie and jay... potng keke ngan aku.. malu nye aku... dah besar pon maseh potong kek.. heheh

but its ok... received alot of wishes...
from, new frens , old fren, best frens n many more...

ive made someone angry on my birthday.. heheh... make him wait mcm tunggu buah tak jaoh..(memang tk jatoh pon... heheh)
Sori yeee... its not ma fault wat.. hehe..

Gift of the month

(dont even dare to ask me wats inside... its between jay n atie)

(sweet kn... hehe... i promise i wont forget ur birthday,heheh)

matderis dtg!!

2008-10-28T23:32:00.000-07:00

hey ya....
PP makes me headache... ni tak bole ... itu bole lah...

hai hai.... Reflections trainning was great when we all complete the scene one...

Selatran with their moves, PK with dramatic actions... DK?? hmmm... great intro...

at mid nite:

As usual.... chatting wif him over the phone....

receive second call... guess who???

MATdeRis lah sey.... at last he call me...

he said," gundu nye bilek sebelah tingkap kan?"

"yelah lah gendeng.... dah kenape tanye? u ok ke tak..u kn perna dtg ruma"

(then he start his bike engine)

argghhh!! i saw him!!

cool or wat!!!

"well gundu... i've done wat i promise."

happy nye aku!

" i give u 3mins.. u come down...jgn make up jgn tuka baju tau.."

When i reached the void deck... i got a big hug... heheh..

my bestie makin kurus... its like smaller than me... kesian...

(kk... don wnna talk about him so much... later someone jealous... hehe)

meet him only 4 a while.... less than 15 min i guess...

PP assessment is tomorow!! urghh..

doa kan lah ye....

syg u all

chao!

selamat hari raye

2008-10-04T22:32:00.000-07:00

Dah lame Naj tk update ..
org tanye... naj tk beraye ke..
kalo pasaL raye ... naj no. 1!!
hehehheh...

sepanjang ramadhan .....
ewah... ku bz to the max!! training pon jarang pegi..
sume sebab terperangkap ngan kerje pat kedai mak...
(ini lah nasib anak bongsu taukay... takleh lepas:( )
sampai last training pon tak pegi... hai... nasib badan ..

Tapi... walaupon ramadhan bulan memenatkan aku.. tapi best jugk..

mula2 iftar di rumah nenek beramai2...

(waktu pengumuman, cik li'in nk gi haji... tapi sayang tak dpt visa last min.. harus ditunda tahun depan)

lepas tu... iftar pat skola pulak... fuyooo....

(tggu wani mcm buah tak jatoh!!)
(org pat depan bebual... kite berposing pula

sebab bz aku pon... sempat jugak buat kueh... alah, tak byk... 3 je....

nasib baek orang kate sedap tau! hehehk.. hehe)

..(choc chip cookie milo... hehhe... sebab lupe nk beli choc powder)

(recipe cikgu Ifah kite... sori fah... aku tak ikot betol2 recipe ko... ko tulis 2 sudu choc powder... aku tuang sanpai satu cawan!!)

semunye gelap2... peminat coklat katekn...

alhamdullilah raye berjalan ngan lancar...

dapat solat raye... heheh/.. (takde halangan)

seronok tau...

(kutbah raya)

(di mane ade aku.. di situ ade ko... pat masjid pon nk bersua muka?? heh)

(ramai betol org)

Yang tak best nye... raye ni.. tak byk jln.. mak aku uh ni... hmmph!

(raye pertama... saudare mara dtg rumah..)

raye kedua, dah kene skola... haizz... tapi best... kecoh dalam klass... skrg dah leh mkn!!)

selain ruma nenek aku... inilah ruma pertama ku beraya....

Rumah DEE!!!

(bersama Jay, Amir, atie, shafiq,dn Arip)

penat uh... k uh... sampai bertemu lagi.... hehehhe...

2008-09-20T11:51:00.000-07:00

smily ME! hehheh

its like...

cutting an onion...

purpose of the onion is to make ur dish taste great/ completely perfect..

since u are using a plastic cuttingboard.. have to hold on to that onion so that it wont run away and stable for cutting... but... if your cut that onion for too long.. soon, u will having tears rolling down ur cheek... then u have the trouble to go into the toilet and wash ur face...

end up u will still ask the other person to cut that for u....

hahha...

like ive said...

"we don't need to forget about our sweet memories.. but..

dont let it controls ur life"

mcm paham...

n.... i love endang soo much...

what>>

2008-09-17T07:47:00.000-07:00

IM OK people!!

I guess so...
I hope so too...
To avoid thinking and some feelings that i have...
I've MAKE myself buzy.,...
Cool huh..
but only for a while...
during ma prayer, before sleep... when dreaming... when im alone...
still thinking about him..
Ive even pray to God to match myself to be with him again...
if not, at least, still talking and chatting...
whahha.... i feel weird everyday..
i don't know how long it can last...
but i hope... hmmm.... i dont know...
come to a conclusion...
...The End...

wuhoo... yea yea.. puase

2008-09-10T07:09:00.000-07:00

selamat menyambut ramadan

Ramadan have been great... i think..whahah...

daily... this is wat i do..

school---work---- home----rj

whahhah.... ok lah

training pon jarang pegi

but last weekends.,. my brother N sistas balek!! buka ramai2

best tau....

even though they don talk that much to me... but their presence make me happy!!jarang ade family gathering...

(hah,.. bile mak bapak pegi masjid... anak2 dan menantu2 bermesyuarat.. baek pe..

semua ni.. berangan nak jadi boss mcm mak abah... pastu beli krete.. dream on!!)

alamak lupe uh nak update sal ni...

due hari sebelum puase... pegi mega perdana semi-final... nk support member katakan...heheh

terbangun lambat... member mengamok... dah kene tinggal...

(kecoh uh lu gang.... tapi tak pe.. nasib baek ade lu... ade jugk teman pegi same2)

(sampai sane... jumpe bdk2 pompan ni... lagi kecoh... whahah... aku suka...

gang... gamba jgk lupe bluetooth,.. )

(haiz si tiga ekor ni... pantang nmpk camera... alermak .. sueet nye...

tu uh... kalo ade muke aku.. mesti gambar cantik punye... hheh.. sori u gang,... jgn mara)

(ah... ini uh die... samseng kampong dusun..hmm... mau lawan kape! sini uh!.. whahah..

muke satu2 dah layu)

whahah... tu lah die yg terjadi... selame ku tak update...

but some amazing thing happen along the way... well hurt sometime...

you people gotta believe in karma... its true! it juz happen to me...

donno wat to do... cant let it go... tanx buddy for wanting to help.. i appreciate it... baek uh bro.. wa caya sama lu... hehheh... dats all...

toodles....

hi ho ...

2008-08-23T06:59:00.000-07:00

hi,... long time neva update...
been bz...
hahha... Bullshit!!!
I hate that B word...

i kept my self bz this holiday....
to forget about something.... i guess...
tutoring, help the stalls, childcare service, gathering,trainings... blah blah..
Tired... but still... lots of things can do...

wat?? I know im wrong... Im forcing myself to like someone again... ended wif rejection... my dear cuzzy, wateva u said that day was unfortunately true... ive been thinking about that ever since... give me headache... tak nk lah... aku takot... ish... i hate this mushy stuff... geli uh... n sometime hurt.... wateva!

lyric..

2008-08-05T21:44:00.000-07:00

I love this song lots.. enjoy..

Goda- Bhumiband

ku tergoda bersama semunya

Hatiku jiwaku terapung bersatu

Mungkinku tak bisa sedarkan semua hampa dan benci yang ada

Dan ku tak bisa sanggup lari dari artinya

Chorus:

Aku... dambakan cinta yang kau beri

Meski aku insan biasa
Masih ingin aku berkata

Ku tergoda bersama pendosa

Hatiku jiwaku kesalku salahku

mungkin ku tak bisa sedarkan semua hampa dan benci yang ada

Dan ku tak bisa sanggup lari dari artinya

(chorus)

kau hancurkan duniaku(4x)
(chorus)

at last i mit u

2008-08-03T05:41:00.000-07:00

AT last i mit u

yesterday.waiting his call macm tunggu buah jatoh sey...

accompany cuzy wATI shopping... sampai dah habes shopping pon tak call agi..

so, we went to sit at paragon MacCafe.. (duduk depan mat saleh sachok gile)

thot of buying some drink.. tapi perot terase lapa.. so patah balek far east..

Along the way he called.. " i called u so many times but cannot get thru sey"

i can oready memorize this line... sad that no movie wif him cuz he said all cinema was fully booked..

a few mins later he said he's oew to town.. he asked me to stay put.. wow.. im so happy, i got chance to meet him... he said maybe lepak pat town or riding around...

but sad thing is that cuzzy wati have no date.. dorg sume bz...

Mit him at mac paragon(outdoor) wif his frens... ask wati to join..

me & bestie chatting.. n stare... whahaha.. nvr see him botak! enjoy talking about the past.. he ahte about Dk..( he said i looked stress when i talk about it.. entah eh..

then when to pool...( naj donwanna play.. sume pt situ pro sey)

me n wati juz watch.. boring sey... wati tak tau main

abeh balek cept... wati's working the next day... tkkn nk suro balek sorg...( dah bagus tu die temankn...) less than two hours of meeting him...mcm tk cukop.. The last time we met was after my opS..

tapi... best uh... dpt lepaskn rindu.. ok uh tu...
fyi.. he don't like to wear a cap.. this cap belongs to Boi..
juz wanna see him wif cap's on

ho ho ho

2008-07-31T08:04:00.000-07:00

My bestie Matderis Gundu messged me... wahhh... miss him lots man..
His like a brother, a fren, a god father.... sometimes part-time BoyF( wahahah... when i need lah kan.) I hope he's ok in NS camp...

Well, well... alot of things happen today... but somehow.. im very2 happy today...
Only some know y... All out... No more sadness, confusion, angry in me for now...
hehhe....

To aTIE:
Is your fluch ok oready ??
still not ok ?? ouh dear... I think that plumber is not qualified...
i can find for you the best cerTified plumber... Hey wait a sec..
i not need to find.. The plumber is oready near the streets...
I help to call him for u k dear... The Astar plumber have to talk slowly , polite
and with a standard... Get back 2 u soon with the new plumber!
chao!

2008-07-20T06:03:00.000-07:00

LEE!! LEE!! NILAH PICTURE FAVORITE MU... WAHAHAHA

ni pulak... group favourite ku.... besar tk berapa besarlah kn...

2008-07-20T05:38:00.000-07:00

Last week, me, my parents, nephews and niece went to race coast (bukit timah lorong 6).

gi tgk rumah my dad lame.

(naj naj... last week nye crite pon lom update,.. haizzz....)

my dad flash back his childhood time... he got lots of story...

ini lah rumah nye... blk 17... ( cermin tingkap pecah.. kenape eh??)

rumah bujang my dad... sebab... rumah sendiri, ramai adek bradek... terpakse lah share rumah ngan bujangan"s" skalian... whahha

sempat petik buah rambutan....

beforre my dad got PR... he got nowhere else to work.. so, terpakselah keje sini.. jage kuda... manje nye kuda tu... ( here's where he learnt english form a rich man)

sampai sane... byk my dad nye members.. btw, second picture tu.. korg jgn pikir bukan2 pulak... die tu ngah pakaikan kuda kasot sport uh... heheh

dari jaoh bunyik bising....so kite gi carik uh.. lupe nye... krete mainan uh.....

dulu susah... skrg... hmmm... alhamdulliah... living standard change totally... heheh.... behind every successful man, there's always a women who give total supports... gotta learn from them.

2008-07-12T04:47:00.000-07:00

donno y... this past few weeks i love to make-up for cuzzy when she go on a date... and make myself like gothic( try to)..

gOOd thing that have someone who join me to be like that!

please dont get mad at me.....

and u... i try to forget about our past.....

just adding

2008-07-07T07:54:00.000-07:00

Less than a year ago.. i wrote this...

Nothing special.. I thought i wrote this for my sister's wedding...

a few already read this... nothing else to update..

ENjoy

i give a name to this...

Api cinta
Ku rasakan seperti api membakar di lubuk hati ku
Percikan-percikan api sering terasa hingga seluruh tubuh badanku
Kesakitan teramat juga dapat terasa di sanubariku
Semakin lama ku bersama mu, semakin membakar rasanya hatiku

Ibaratkan gunung berapi mula menunjukkan kekuatannya,
Bara- bara api mula bergelodak dan tidak tertahan lagi untuk keluar
Kehangatannya seperti mahu melawan dengan pancaran sinar suria nun jauh sana
Titik- titik panas mula membuatku tidak rasa selesa
Lidah yang mulanya beku, kian sudah cair , sering mahu membicarakan kata-kata

Kepulan-kepulan asap hitam mula berani mengelubungi langit
Berani mengubah kesucian awan yang putih
Mengapa bisa jadi begini, membuat ku berasa gelisah dan bingit
Aduhai, tenungan matamu membuatku tidak tertahan lagi

Ya! aku terima hatimu, aku terima cintamu
Kata-kata cinta dari bibirmu terlalu indah untukku
Cukup dengan itu saja bisa membuatku kaku
Apa yang tersirat di hatiku tidak dapat tersurat dari mulutkuOh Tuhan, dapatkah kita bersatu??

CHao!:)

hi

2008-07-05T21:11:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps... im sure u missed me...

whahahah

reason why i don update ma blog is bcuz im very busy the whole month..

WHHAAAAT!!! hehhe... if i'm gonna give this reason, i'm gonna get blamed for lying...

About 2 months ago... One give a bad comment, that somehow hurts me alot....

He somehow know about it... recently.... Naj acted dumbed on the phone... pretending not knowing anything... angry to both parties.... Being too nice, naj never do anything about it( i hate this!!)FORGIVEN & FORGOTTEN....

Present... i donno what happen to me.... change every moment... A minute ago i was very happy...then, get irritated... find reasons to leave that place... then.... silence.,.next moment,back to normal... [NAJ!!! what happen]

He hated it.... so sorry... i'm unable to explain...

Tanx dee... being ma fren:)

happy bdae endang!!

2008-06-04T09:17:00.000-07:00

Sentosa...

sesampai je... tgk dorg ngah berendam... waduh...

Happy birthday!!!

bukan main... sampai ade tiga cake bdae...2 dibikin... 1 dibeli....

Dah mkn kek,, dah makan macarni, mee, ayam goreng..

ape lagi... berendam lah kite... dah lame aku tk mask air...

dah rendam... konon nye sun tenning uh...

( apelah juare karut nie..)

Dah penat... pe lagi... kemas2 jalan uh....

Then.. some of us went to vivo banquet...

waduh.. kene abeskn last kek... muke sume dah layu...

pastu, angkat kaki jalan uh... naek bus 963.. penat...

heheh....

chao!

--> It was her happy moment:)

--> edited by her( luv it bestie!)

TIME PRINTERS VISIT

2008-06-04T00:09:00.000-07:00

Celebration on endang's birthday was dA bOOm! whahah...

But before going to sentosa... early in the morning me, ifah, jay, lee,wani& diyana had to go to the TIME PRINTERS company visits ... Haiz... what to do.. had to grab alot of CE points to graduate.. wahah.. wahaha... I had two people to wake me up... 530 am!!

As usual, the person who always late to meet us at control station will be jay...
I bought rocx for jay... for first time the seller ask for ic... wahah... AND SO...

we were welcomed...

Everywhere we go... we take pics... wahaha( biaselah... kate endang)

First start we went to the conference room for some lecture about that company...

Then we when to visit the places where they process printing....

wanna know why they put this sign?? Inside the room... noise from the machines can make me go deaf!!!

Well.. printing is not easy job... have to go through alot of process..

receiving data, color separation, types of printing, binding and etc.

making sure to meet customer needs will be the first priority...

ONe sign that make me shock...

what do they mean?? whahah...

( we get the wrong idea)

At the end of the visit... at last food for hungry chicks!! wahah

while eating, jay asked about part time job( sememangnye bidak endang ngah miskin)

The GM said this is not tiome to promote job vacancies.. but yes... they accept 17 years old and above... whahah

and so w end there...

bubyez time printers..

And hello SENTOSA!!

2008-05-31T20:51:00.000-07:00

Last week...

Abah: Man.. k teaw goreng satu... Pedas ye...

Man: mau telor?? mate lembu?/

Naj: mau... tanx

Wow... baek pe...

hEART Shape...
enjoy eating dat ... its delicious... hmm.. i reccommend u all to eat at adam road..Great food...

Today...

very sick... i got headache plus fever...
I'm sorry to this person... Only can meet him for awhile...
Those who wanna go out with me or date.. You have to bare with me..
I always have last minute urgent call.. mostly from my parents.. whaha!!

I can't wait for upcoming monday.. IT's endang's first BIrthDay lah sey...
We gonna to celebrate at sentosa.. wow. isn't that great! ( confirm sume berendam punye!)
Got to bring something for our birthday... Me and ifah plan something... hmm.. Im not sure we can do it or not... (Besok leh bebual ah sis)

k.. Chao!

SUNDAE

2008-05-18T05:57:00.000-07:00

Fuh... i hate suNdae...

wanna Know y?? BecuZ its borinG!!! Wanna go out with friends... but u got stuck with some family events.. It different from 10 years ago whereby my siblings still single.. no Committment, no babies crying 4 them.. NOW, like between me n them, like two different world..

Well... that's not my problem... my real problem is, im shortage of casH!!

Seriously...i cant work..lots of things to do... lots of commitment... Im now waiting 4 my sister to hire me to be her children's tutor... I never proposed that to my sister cuz her children really gives a headche.. but i got nothing else to think about.. cuz that's the only job that cover less than 3hrs/day. heheh...
tHat's all... back to watch tv.. bored... :( cHaO

Yok balek kampong.. show di bustraw strt.

2008-05-06T11:30:00.000-07:00

INilah yg terjadi semasa kite ade show di BUstraaaaaaaaawwww strt... (3/5/2008)sape yg tak tau..tempt tu dekat ngan masjid sultan...

sebelum berangkt ke sana..
haiya... kecoh.. kecoh...
Mulo-mulo... tibenye saye( saye or wat!!!) di skola.. pergi ke trcc.. hai, ade pening siket
tak hilang2 saketnye dari tuari.

sempat karut endang ni baring dulu... kesian, takde bilek, baring luar uh nampknye.. sambil kak naj tdo... adelah si sipulan ni bergambar dgn kace mate hitam dan topi...hehehhe

Bukan maen... tapi... cute pulak...

tapi... tak sume org lepak... ade yg bertungkus lumus siapkan pakaian endang... ade jugak set up kn brg percussion utk practice skejap...

time pertengahan practice tu... ade je org nak interrupt... die kate kite takleh buat bising, sebab dorang ade event pt trcc... hai... menyusahkan.. tapi pat sane ade bilek kosong.. waduh.. masok jelah kite.. tapi kite tak book bilik tu... Ah.. masok je lah..

tak lame kemudian.. abg favourite endang datg... sume tergamam.. tak lah sekecoh yg kite maksodkn pat tagboard endang.. ape tak.. die datg mendadak... atie pulak ngah gosok baju endang... pakai singlet pulak tu... nasib baek tak berkemban..hehhe.. tapi kite sukeeee zoul datg!

lepas practice jap... apelagi... sume sibok2 siap uh... jangan lambat sudah...

(ade yang sibok mengemas lah... heheh.. inilah asistant head endang...)

( ade yang sibok make up kan saye lah...maaflah, kak karut ni kalo pasal make ade kurenng baek..) liyanak tanye"ko tau pakai celak bawah ngan mascara kan??" naj jawab"tau!"

aH... YG ini... jagn tanye... confuse... die nak siap ke.. nk practice tepok ke ... aku pon tak tau lah mACHA.... kak juare kite siang2 dah siap.. kecian... saket tekak die hati tu.. minu air banyk2 tau...

tapi pokoknye sume dah serba serbi siap uh... eh... aLAmAK... LUPE LAK... nak bilang ni.. show ni... bukan naj je tukang karut... hmm.. nk tuka mood pulak... endangkn ade unik siket.. heheh...
mempersembahkn tukang karut kedUA... Nek Rock!

Eh... bukan maen... nenek maen rebana... tak sia-sia gi skola republic... hehhehe
dah tu... kite brangkt leh... sambil tunggu bas..sempat bergambar lagi.. sume dah siap... naj sorg lom... alah.. paham2 uh.. pnas sey...

show sume... berjalan ngan lancar... mak saleh suke performance kite lah sey... well, i hope they will remember us... Endang... wahha...

Lepas tu, saye kuar ngan kakak saye,, best.. mcm dating ngan sista gitu... dapat mkn dinner, mkn ice cream.. jln2.. wah wah wah..

Sekian saja dari kami untuk semua, mohon maaf andai ada silap bicara...:)

Yok balek kampong! Yetimeq tunggu tu... hhhahaah...

2008-05-02T23:20:00.000-07:00

Today.... hmm...
My headache got better... after the second meeting...
Greatfully, wani hav breakfast with me... i can't msg anyone..
wah... so sian... at least i can survive without the use of hp...
Then, while waiting for the class to end, i msning with atie...
in different manner... With indirect conversation, "pantun"
kekek lah sey... but it was very fun.. i enjoy it...
Aftr class end, follow bas to the trcc to take the percussion stuffs...
Have a quick training for tomorow's show... scary sey... first time for spontaneous performance
outside rp... But nevermind, at least got dee to be ma back up...

Reached home, called ma cuzin.... as usual gerls talk... whahah...
long time never chat with her... hmm... end my the to call him... i wanna my mp3 back.. haiyo...
so difficult to contact him.. im bored lah...
oops, gotto sleep, bz day tomorow... wish me luck..
tata... bubyezzz.....

yebba

2008-05-01T00:00:00.000-07:00

what a day!!

today... early in the morning, contact my old friend..
Hope she can help my friend to find job for him... haiyo...
Well, she have lots of contacts... so, she's the first person in mind for solutions...
Well, he's abit too choosy ... really troublesome... but sometimes there's a good point of being one...
We all 3 meet at cck mrt... well... this is not first time of she meeting him... so, thank god there's no silence between them... makes me more comfortable..
After searching .... before seperations... we go "lepakings" at mac... some singing lesson held there... heheh... ( a lot of faults)

Then me went to school... very late for welcome tea for the year 1s new entry for film ig...well... im one of the committee, must be there...
mEET COOL NEW MEMBERS.... there still fresh... so... need to squeeze their idea quickily...
so it wont dry up... gives some advice first before they know about filming production...
MOre competiton coming up... haiya... bz bz bz!!!

Late! late ! for my dk training... haiya... but... its ok.... its not my turn to train... just the juara part... i got nothing to loss.. wahahah...
i make new friend there... manage to get her join us for a while... make her feel dikir... heheh...

my Headache arose suddenly.... i can't even sit still during the meeting... Im the secretary of endang lah sey,.. alot of work to do... but i dont know exactly i should do... but... nevermind...
at least i can help the "head"... not just enjoying people!! make some benefits to others too..
Btw, tanx to lina and wani for massaging my forehead... N ain... wahahah... minyak cap kapak mu berhasil ...
Promosi siket ye..
" minyak cap kapak leong kai foo... u never know when u need it... so keep it handy!"
wahaha... quoted from RIA FM..

Did some "PANTUN" OEW WAY HOME WITH ATIE... OH MAN... WE ROCK! heheh ... asal bole nye pantun.. tapi menjadi... heheh.... presenting the third karot soon!! heheh...

sheeesh... wanna watch tv now..

RELOAD

2008-04-30T23:20:00.000-07:00

Ive been silent for quite awhile...
ive deleted my past entry...
but why?? i got a reason...
Other side of me, really think that i should not delete it..
ive done nothing wrong.. no... not at all...

However, it became a hot topic in my tagboard... who are u??
how u know?? did i do something wrong... y just a memory happen to make a big thing...
I don't mind if its just a comment or an advice...
but how cum it seems very harsh...
Thanks btw, it seems that u monitor my movements....

Yes ive dated a few guys.... send me to the doorstep...
its that something very wrong.... well, i don't think so..
Friends can send me to doorstep... Admirers do so too...
Have u dated? once? or more than that...??never??
Need me to help... or anything..
People need to be a bit more friendly, enjoy life...
To make things clear... im not stress of how he treats me... not at all...
Im telling u again... im just flashingback about sweet memories... n that's it...

lOad it into ur brain,...

If u happen to hav crush on that person... no problemo 4 me..
Btw, Im not acting dumb 4 not knowing his status... cuz I REALLY DON'T KNOW!
if u are so free,... well u can tell me the details...

JUST MAKING PEACE HERE!!

CHAO!!

2008-04-11T07:40:00.000-07:00

thursday(10 april 2008)

I cab't belieeeeeeef this! i end up planing for the sla fiesta film iG
And in-charge or sending the planing through email...
wahahha... never done this before...

but after the meeting, straight to dikir training..
stress free!! wuhoo...
although some parts where i have to do spontanously perform..
but still with dee lah sei....
wuhooo!! im not alone after all..
oops! can't tell more... hehhe... wait till 18/4/2008

aftermath, our endangs favourite bro, gave us a treat.. great isn't it??
to the 10 of us( 5 beautiful babes & 5 BEAst) oops dudes i mean..

( SORRY NO PICS... I TRY TO GET IT AITE!)

REGARDS,
NAJ

some other woman.,,

2008-04-06T00:34:00.000-07:00

I thought that my story life is horrible...
but i just realize there are some women have worst story...
as i looked through about this popular pop star...
her life... well can say its sucks...
i don't want to have love experience like her...
she is.. the one that has a unique voice & moves...

BRITNEY SPEARS...

(well.. here's her story line)

1998 - 2000..

she starts her career as an entertainer when she was 17. To cut is short, alot of her songs were in number 1 Billboard. she was known as ' a little blond girl who were told what to do"

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well juz skip about her singig and her career...( we all know that she's successful in this)

Britney's personal life

1999- 2004

april 1999-She posed for her first major magazine publication, the photo shoot garnered much attention for the mixing of innocence and sexuality. The cover featured her in a skimpy outfit lying on a bed.

More controversy arose when She declared that she would "remain a virgin until marriage". This pledge has been questioned due to her apparently sexual relationship with fellow pop singer Justin Timberlake.
In early 2002, Spears's four-year relationship with Timberlake ended. His 2002 song "Cry Me a River" and its music video, which featured an actress resembling Spears, caused speculation that Spears had been unfaithful.Timberlake, however, denied that his song was meant to portray her.

June 2002 saw the opening of Spears's restaurant, Nyla, in New York City.However, she was pulled out of the business venture in November as a result of debts and management issues.

In the same year, Limp Bizkit frontman confirmed that he was in a relationship with Spears. Durst was also hired to help write and produce tracks for her album In the Zone, which were eventually scrapped.

January 3 2004-married childhood friend Jason Allen Alexander .The marriage lasted 55 hours,

2004- 2006

In July 2004, Spears announced her engagement to Kevin Federline, three months after they met. Federline had recently been in a relationship with actress Shar Jackson, who was eight months pregnant with their second child.

On the night of September 18, Spears married Federline in a surprise,
filing legal papers on October 6.

After the marriage, Spears announced via her website that she would be taking another career break to start a family. She gave birth to her first child, Sean Preston Federline.

Spears announced her second pregnancy in May 2006 during an appearance on
She also appeared on Dateline the next month to discuss tabloid rumors about an impending divorce, and motherhood. She addressed an incident which occurred in February when photos revealed her driving with her son unrestrained in her lap, explaining, "I see a bunch of photographers and I’m scared and I want to get out of the situation... They’re coming up on the sides of the car which is a scary situation for me... so I get my baby out of the car and I go home."
the August 2006 -Spears posed nude cover of Harper's Bazaar.
Just two days before Sean's first birthday, Spears gave birth to her second son, Jayden James Federline on September 12.

November 7-Spears filed for divorce from Federline (asking for both physical and legal custody of their two children, with visitation rights for Federline.)

The couple reached a global settlement agreement in March 2007 and their divorce was finalized in July.

2007–2008

February 16.[Spears then stayed in an off-shore drug rehabilitation facility for less than 24 hours
The following night at a hair salon , she shaved her head with electric clippers.

A few days later, she admitted herself to another treatment facility .
While leaving the facility briefly, she quickly returned on February 22.

Throughout 2007, Spears's behaviors received heightened media attention, including attacking a paparazzi vehicle with an umbrella.
As the legal battle over the custody of their children continued, many members of her entourage have been summoned to testify about her parenting skills.
In September 2007, the official findings in Spears's custody battle were announced by the court. She was ordered to undergo random drug and alcohol testings and to attend parenting counseling.

A few days later, she was officially charged with misdemeanor hit-and-run and driving without a license!! If convicted, she could face a year in jail.

October 1-Spears lost physical custody of her children to Federline

are you sure u wanna piece of her??!?!

hear what she has to say....

just go to youTube...

& click this on the search--> PT 1 - BRITNEY SPEARS 2006 INTERVIEW BEARS ALL

there are four parts for these interviews..

learn about her life, & telll me what's the moral of her story... whahah

(mcm paham)

poem reflects

2008-04-05T00:30:00.000-07:00

happen to read this.... love it, so read it...

After Summer Fell Apart
by Yusef Komunyakaa

I can’t touch you.
His face always returns;
we exchange long looks
in each bad dream
& what I see, my God.
Honey, sweetheart,
I hold you against me
but nothing works.

Two boats moored,
rocking between nowhere
& nowhere.
A bone inside me whispers
maybe tonight,
but I keep thinking
about the two men wrestling nude
in Lawrence’s Women in Love.
I can’t get past
reels of breath unwinding.
He has you. Now
he doesn’t. He has you
again. Now he doesn’t.
You’re at the edge of azaleas
shaken loose by a word.
I see your rose-colored
skirt unfurl.
He has a knife
to your throat,
night birds come back
to their branches.
A hard wind raps at the door,
the new year prowling
in a black overcoat.
It’s been six months
since we made love.
Tonight I look at you
hugging the pillow,
half smiling in your sleep.
I want to shake you & ask
who. Again I touch myself,
unashamed, until
his face comes into focus.
He’s stolen something
from me & I don’t know
if it has a name or not
like counting your ribs
with one foolish hand
& mine with the other.

Yusef Komunyakaa, “After Summer Fell Apart” from Pleasure Dome: New and Collected Poems. Copyright © 2001 by Yusef Komunyakaa. Reprinted with the permission of Wesleyan University Press.Source: Pleasure Dome: New and Collected Poems (2001).

she told me..

2008-04-04T23:20:00.000-07:00

on the 16 nov 2007...

ma good fren , her b'dae wish 4 me:

I hOpe U get attached soon after this.

juz accept whoever comes to u, plz...

no rejection..

recently,

she asked : to whom actually i liked?

well, i still don't know who yet.( i think) I'M alWAys afraid that that stuff happen again.

im afraid that i will fall to a wrong guy.

but sometimes, i fall at the wrong time...

which means, after that person stopped chasing after me... hehehe... weird right.

juz now,

me & my cousin recall what happen few years back..

it was really a trauma. To think about it again,

it's like a piece of joke. scary but funny...

This are the type of guys i wouldn't want to date or to be in relationship with:

1) someone's fiance

2) someone's husband

3) someone's dad

NO more please.... hate to happen again...

wohoo...

2008-03-20T20:00:00.000-07:00

cONGRATS TO Ppl who HavE won!!

yebba...
i wont forget this date... 16-03-2008...
cuz my favourite juara.. my favourite group & ma favourite karot won!!
hmm... today i wont write much... juz pics... enjoy!:)

about me..

2008-03-14T05:41:00.000-07:00

2008-03-13T21:00:00.000-07:00

Go 4 oPeRAtIon is not bad after all....

here's Wat i goT afTer a week At HOME,

on the 7/3/08

1) SHOES & SLIPPERS

2) JEWELRY CHOMEL

3) ADDIDAS BAG

4) LEVIS PANTS

5) ADDIDAS SHIRT

6) 2 BLAUSE

7) GUCCI WRIST BAg

wohoo... first time huge shoppings... a great thanx 2 these people:

1) abg Fizan - 4 the treat for the movies & all these stuff

2) kak ida - 4 choosing this stuff 4 me & also the treat

3) idris a.k.a matderis- 4 accompany me & carry the shpping bags 4 me...

U're all great people.... Promise not to 4get u all... hearts u guys lots... u ppl make my day!!

2008-03-04T16:42:00.000-08:00

some people might ask where have i been this past few days....

why i never online?

well... im still alive.......

here's what happen actually..

on satuday- 1/3/2008

morning- going to work, pain stomach.. but not that serious... so don't care about it

11am- at work: pain got worst ... can't even walk properly... but still continue working
- don't know who to ask for help, so called my father to fetch me

afternoon - dad got me to clinic. the doctor said he suspect that i got appendix problem....

got to go hospital immidiately..

evening- went to SGH... after check-up, the consultant said that i have to stay for further checkup... been warded after that... ( unexpected)

night- a doctor came to me to review my case.... told my parents to sign for the operation

but they refuse,...

midnight- 2 senior doctors came to check me..
2am - went for x-ray
3am- called my parents to cum & sign the form

sunday 2/3/2008

8am - mum came to sign the form

9am- prepare to go to the operation room

10am- operation starts

1230pm- operation ended, back to the ward

well.... the whole process before operation was tiring...
i was unable to sleep......
tears running down my cheek.......
i can't control it....
3 days ..... no food for me.....
weak & helplesss .....
tanx to mum & dad......
really appreciate their help & concern.......
to my siblings...... hearts them lots.......
to my buddies who came...... can't repay your kindness....
... they been there for me......

no more hospital for me...... ITS SUCKS! DAMN BORING!

Tuesday - 4/3/2008
discharged!

2008-02-24T23:18:00.000-08:00

its not only about money

.... u don't understand....

... no matter how much u offer me, i still have to reject....

... its not because i don't have any interest in it...

... but i have my own reasons....

... the fact that i want to start from the bottom....

... u should have known this.... i don't see any fairness...

... im not ashamed to be born in this way,...

... but im afraid that things around here will not changed...

...doing business is in my blood... i know that ....

... but i don't like your way of handling it....

.... i just don't like....

... its not that i want to be rebelious kid....

.... only one person understands ma situation...

.... im glad that i have one.,,,

.....thank u sis.,..

2008-02-22T06:34:00.000-08:00

nAJ... Naj....

what more do i want...

...y do i still not happy??...

... did i miss out something??

... haiz... sometimes i really can't fufill what my heart desires, thirst, pleasure....

... somebody please tell me what is it...

... what's wrong with me..

... goSH, i wish i have the answers to my doubts..

... never understandsma feelings...

... i fail to make myself happy...

but At least i help others to be happy...

heheheh...

no regrets...

... well...

wish u all good night...

... happy dreaming....

2008-02-19T06:48:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is the day....

... when the girls starts to confess...

... telling the truth....

... no more misunderstanding...

.... oh please, i hope so....

here are the suggested ground rules for the general meeting:

1) no raising of voice

2) no emoing

3) no bringing outsider ( can be negotiated)

4) each of us have to say something/ or at least suggest a solution

5) obviously, no fighting

rules done by me.... hhehe:)

this meeting is very important...

... to make peace....

... no more rumours...

.... just because we are like SIsters...

hearts them lots!!

Save me from love....

2008-02-18T07:34:00.000-08:00

...Let's talk about love....

...what's there to love...
trust me... everyone said love is blind...
but still... people fall in love..
guess...love really have a great power...
wahhahaha...

....i cant't deny....
...i am the victim of love...
... but my love story is not what every girl in this world dream of..
... my love history was a nightmare...
... present, i force myself fall in love again...
... but i was wrong... i can't force love....
... perfect person is not equal to real love...
...im very sorry....

... just then i realise... my heart beats hard...
... i found one....
... not perfect one... but its great to be with...

....my brain started to give reminder towards my heart...
...about karma....
... i believe in that....
what i've done to those people that ive hurt... it will turn back to me...
... i was horrified by that....
... i expected some things to happen...
...but yet... i just act normal...
...not thinking about seriousness in any relationship...
... i won't hope any " happily ever after" thing...
... until that person say so...
... just wait & see....

2008-02-17T08:26:00.000-08:00

last saturday was my off dae,
yet, i still feel tired...
i went out the whole day..
....here's what i did....

1) morning--- meet up with ma three buddies( emy, fai, ril)
--- book btt
2) afternoon ---- go town -> eat, help the guys wif some shopping

3) evening --- go to the guy's dk training

i was so damn tired...

haizz... the training ends at 10 +...
it was fun eventually... i enjoyed it...
took bus 168....
was damn sleeepy... got headache...
... i slept without thinking ppl ard me... comfortably...
... the bus reach wdld... luckily he woke me up...

really wish dat the bus reach till ma house...
i still have to take 963...

eactly 12am.... i reached home...
wat a day...

2008-02-17T02:17:00.000-08:00

wuhoo...

another competition...

oh shit!!

exactly 28days more...

can we make it ??

i hope so...

this collaboration is damn great...

i hope the rest of the endangs can join too...

oh no... my heart wanna say it out loud..

I LOVE ENDANG...

hheeheh...

oh dear...

even though im not representing endang..

i still been chosen as karut...

haiya..

i guess, its my journey ...

just hope ill be the best this time..

pray 4 me ya ..

siStazHooD

2008-02-16T21:09:00.000-08:00

Sisterhood...
what's the meaning of it?

1.an organization of women with a common interest,

2.Usually, the sisterhood. the community or network of women
who participate in or support feminism.

this what i feel when i stepped into this group..

i don't wanna this team to break up...

i don't wanna this team to fight among each other...

this can't be happening...

please girls... please tell me what's wrong...
i can't force you to think like me...
but i can help...
because i believe... we have the same interest...
silence kills..
just tell me...

journey starts here...

2008-02-13T22:37:00.000-08:00

Hey..

Naj here..

sharing whatever i can about me..

happiness, hatred, love, family, life...

( in two languages)

just wait & see...